So, I'm not really one of those snobby people to do book reviews, and I didn't just read Catcher in the Rye, but I just have rerealized what a great book it is.
That feeling of trying to hold on to innocence in a world where growing up is pushed upon you so quickly. It just captures how I feel about my life looking back on it so far. I've been chasing freedom through trying new things trying to get my fix on new feelings and excitement. But when you're little everything is the world is so new and intriguing and exciting.
Some people describe themselves as having an "old soul" or a "new/young soul" or whatever. I feel that I am the type of person who is a young soul. I feel like I can only learn from experience or the hard way. The song New Soul by Yael Naim depicts this perfectly.
I've been chasing freedom, but when I think back and try to think of the times when I felt the absolute free-est, I think of my youth. And not really entire stages or whatever, but almost photographic memories. I remember a sunny Sunday afternoon at our old house. Me and my sister had gotten McDonalds for lunch and the toy we got in our Happy Meals was a bubble maker thing. I remember running through the sunny yard making ginormous bubbles that looked like big shiny clear worms. It was bliss. So careless, so happy, so free from worries or any troubles. Everything was right in that moment of time.
I have other memories that depict this perfect feeling as well, but that is just one of them. I don't really know what I'm trying to explain here, except maybe that blissful feeling of freedom that everyone encounters in their youth. Growing up is not an easy thing to do. I understand and accept that I have no idea really what life is about or what I'm trying to accomplish in this lifetime that I have here on earth, but I guess that is the beauty of it. I suppose I just want to make as many memories like the one above as I can. I would like my life to be full of experience. I want to live on the edge and take things one step at a time. I feel like no one should waste their life planning it away, but just live it now. Things work themselves out. I feel like life is just this big adventure. I'm eager to see what is lying in wait. I suppose that's what keeps me going. You never know what will happen next.
And I don't regret any of the people I've met, or the places I've been, or the circumstances that have happened to me. Everything that I've experienced is what makes me the person I am today. And everyday I change more as I experience more things. It's like evolving. The ever changing present. It's a beautiful thing.
I'm not sure if there is a point to this blog entry or not, but I simply felt inspired to write. That's the only time I can write. I guess I'm just trying to let people into my mind a little, share some of myself and my experience with life. I feel like if I don't share it then there's no point to growing and learning things.
I just like this picture. My floral tights, yellow clasp chain purse, boots, and off the shoulder top.
haha, just thought I'd share.